Gretchen has been getting so much better. The crying has eased off, she smiles at me all the time. She's becoming a mama's girl, which I suppose is normal considering she spends every waking hour with me. I realized last night how hard it is going to be to go back to work. It hit me like a two-ton buffalo. I woke up at 2:45 in the a.m. to pump and I couldn't get back to sleep. I just lay there in